I'm a number cruncher!

My new job consists of crunching numbers! I hate numbers. Bleh. This is great job experience though.

I got a call today from the school where I work. They want me to work summer school. I had to tell them no. :( It would have been more money, closer to home, less days a week, but.........I already obligated myself to this job, so I feel I should follow through. Sigh. It was a tough call. I'm really enjoying not spending all day with kids though, it makes me appreciate my kids more. I actually want to spend time with my kids now. Tomorrow we are going to the beach. YAY.

I've decided to go back to the school in the fall though. I love being on the same schedule. I think I've talked about this already though.

We are going to Oklahoma to see my Dad in July. We leave here the end of June and will be gone for two weeks. I'm so excited!! It will have been just about a year since I've seen my Dad. I'll also get to see Sally. :D

We are all ready for a break from the daily grind. I didn't even get a day off between jobs. I just started Monday and school ended Friday. Whew, I'll be glad for a break.

Dad has all kinds of fun stuff lined up for the time we'll be there. A ball game on the 4th of July, a trip to the go carts (which we all LOVE), the zoo, and lots of other stuff. We don't need to be entertained, we want to spend time with him! He totally digs on doing this stuff though. I think we'll even take the kids to the Oklahoma City Memorial again. They don't remember going since it was right after we moved there.

Off to bed, work in the am. Dang sometimes being a grown up is a drag.

Oh, wish us luck, results for Master come out in two weeks. Cross those fingers for us, please!! We really, really need this. If Jose makes Master, we get to move right into base housing. YAY. So, please, say those prayers for us.

Happy Mother's Day

We celebrated yesterday because Jose is off to Little Rock for six days. A military thing, shh, don't ask. If I told you why he's there, I'd have to kill you and I don't have enough air miles. :P

I was really thrilled with my Mother's Day. We had a great day. I got a few things I really wanted, a few things I didn't know I wanted till I had, and a great meal at the Hibachi. Mmm. The kids love days we celebrate me. LOL. They get to eat out on those days.

I had to get up and take Jose to the airport (if you can call it that) and he said to me, "What a great Mother's Day, you get to drive me to the airport." It made me sad because my Mother's Day was yesterday and he felt that he had somehow done something wrong by leaving today. I love that man.

I haven't called my Mother yet. I dread it. When I talk to her I feel that I have to entertain her. Keep her laughing so I don't have to hear how "sad and lonely" she is. Self inflicted lonliness should not count. PERIOD. I don't want to hear that her life is shit. I'm sorry, it's hard enough to keep myself floating above depression without hearing about hers and being backhandedly blamed for it.

So HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY world. Ha ha. My life is a comedy.

Random musings

1. Why do the Mario characters on Super Smash Brothers look like The Village People in training?

2. Why are Doritos's so dang addicting?

3. Why do I have to crave chocolate when my period is coming? Why can't I crave exercise or water?

4. Why does it feel like a school year lasts an eternity?

5. Why can't some people give up control of a NON-Profit organization? Especially after lamenting to any and all people that they're tired of it?

6. Why can't some people grow up?

7. Why isn't it legal to retire (shoot) people whose gene pools are too shallow to procreate?

8. Why can you not give up your monthlies once you are done having kids? I'd like to donate mine to a woman who can't have them.

9. Isn't it funny that it is ILLEGAL to talk on your cellphone while driving, yet I see police doing it all the time?

10. Why is racial profiling and legislated racism okay?

11. Why do people say the United States is the greatest country in the world, then COMPLAIN about some of the freedoms we DO have?

And another thing >:(

I get really pissed at people on a certain site that think the entire universe revolves around them. Never there for anyone else, never reply to people, yet come to this place and expect people to fawn all over them. WTH?

Why is it that life is feeling more and more like a year in Elementary school?

Everyone has issues, hell, I'm toting a bag full of them myself. 99% of my life is kept inside this house we pay an ungodly amount of money to live in till we get base housing.

I just don't get the whole: I'm going to spill my guts to the universe about every bowel movement, issue/non issue in my life. Are people that bored? Are they that insecure? Are they that needy?

Being something of a loner, I don't get it. I rarely open myself to true friendship, when I do, it's for life. I'm like one of those animals that mate for life I guess. Once I've taken you into my confidence, you're in. A few exceptions to that rule would be people that change after you get to know them. The honeymoon ends and they are psycho bitches or something. There is only room for one psycho bitch in my friendships and I've CORNERED that market, thanks.

Anyway, back on tangent. I start to distance myself from certain places online because I want to say something extremely mean and hurtful in the hopes that some will go away forever. So....let me wave my magic wand and beat the shit out of people with it. Will that work for you? No? Well, at least it makes ME feel better.

11.5 days left, repeat, 11.5 days left

We have that many days left of school. YAY! I'm one of those weird parents that likes when the kids are home from school. I love the fact that I won't have to get up and rush around yelling at the kids to get out the door. I love that we'll get to visit my Dad, who I miss so much I hurt. I love the fact that we are now in a place where we can drive down the road a few miles and sit on a white sand beach all day.

I don't like the fact that I will not have an income during the summer. Yikes! That really scares me. I'm trying to find something that will get me through the summer, I just haven't yet.

Things are crazy busy around here. Between soccer for two kids, Band Boosters (which I am President of), end of year activities at three schools and work, I am flat out exhausted.

I feel like I am home one night a week. I want to sit here and not have the phone ring. Is that too much to ask?

My IL's want the kids to fly out to Cali ON THEIR OWN. Yeah, not happening. I am not putting my four kids on an airplane with layovers (two) to send them across the country. Just not gonna happen. I'm the big baddie because I won't let my kids fly without an adult present. Elizabeth is too young to have to be responsible for her three siblings like that. Jose has lost his mind and seems to think it's ok. Well, it's not.

Of course I'd like for the kids to be able to visit family, of course I'd like to have time where Jose and I could be alone for a month. Of course I would LOVE to get the kids out there. Just not like this. It would also make it easier for me not to work if they are not here eating us out of the house. I just can't feel good about this in my heart, so the answer is a resounding NO. Am I a bad person? I don't think so. I'd like to think not anyway. I know that I am not a terrific person, but in this I will not waiver.

Anyway, all I can think about right now is the 11.5 days of work I have left.