We have that many days left of school. YAY! I'm one of those weird parents that likes when the kids are home from school. I love the fact that I won't have to get up and rush around yelling at the kids to get out the door. I love that we'll get to visit my Dad, who I miss so much I hurt. I love the fact that we are now in a place where we can drive down the road a few miles and sit on a white sand beach all day.
I don't like the fact that I will not have an income during the summer. Yikes! That really scares me. I'm trying to find something that will get me through the summer, I just haven't yet.
Things are crazy busy around here. Between soccer for two kids, Band Boosters (which I am President of), end of year activities at three schools and work, I am flat out exhausted.
I feel like I am home one night a week. I want to sit here and not have the phone ring. Is that too much to ask?
My IL's want the kids to fly out to Cali ON THEIR OWN. Yeah, not happening. I am not putting my four kids on an airplane with layovers (two) to send them across the country. Just not gonna happen. I'm the big baddie because I won't let my kids fly without an adult present. Elizabeth is too young to have to be responsible for her three siblings like that. Jose has lost his mind and seems to think it's ok. Well, it's not.
Of course I'd like for the kids to be able to visit family, of course I'd like to have time where Jose and I could be alone for a month. Of course I would LOVE to get the kids out there. Just not like this. It would also make it easier for me not to work if they are not here eating us out of the house. I just can't feel good about this in my heart, so the answer is a resounding NO. Am I a bad person? I don't think so. I'd like to think not anyway. I know that I am not a terrific person, but in this I will not waiver.
Anyway, all I can think about right now is the 11.5 days of work I have left.
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